TAKE A RIDE ON MY DISCO STICK '

[aspeth emilie blake]

THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROM

cigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks

There was a lot she’d missed out on, a lot she had to catch up on. Aspeth had always been a selfish person by nature, the only thing that had ever mattered to her was her life and what was happening in it. But as the key people in her life had left, Aspeth found herself being more interested in the outside world. Lukas was outside of her world now; she had a lot of catching up to do. He’d said he was in a band but she had no idea what it was called, he was obviously still in contact with Brogan and part of her felt bad for Lawson, but it was pity because he’d left his best friends behind for whatever reason and had obviously thought he was better off without them. Not making any acknowledgement to the hand on her leg, the blonde listened in surprise as Lukas gave her a brief run down of Brogan’s history. “Holy fuck, he got jess knocked up when we left basically” she was speaking more to herself then anyone else. Five years was a long time and Brogan had to be around the same age as Lukas with a five year old son? That was insane. That thought caused her to imagine Lukas with a son of five years old, it was a weird thought , not that she doubted he’d be a good parent but he never seemed like the type of person who would settle down.

As soon as her little speech was over, Aspeth stood and made her way to the door. Although for the second time that night she felt Lukas’s hand grab her by the arm and spin her around again. They had better not start making a habit of this, or she was going to be bruised. She attempted to return his smile but it faltered “Walking away is just what I do Luke” she would have thought he knew that by now. It was his turn to rant now and she let him, waiting patiently. It felt like she was trying to give him the goodbye she never got to the first time around but everything he was saying messed with her head. A large majority of her wanted him back in her life, but she didn’t want to drag him down. Aspeth was well aware that she was like a succubus, if you weren’t strong enough to deal with her she would drain the life out of you. Not that Luke wasn’t strong enough to put up with her she just didn’t think he should have to. ‘You might be the same guy, but what if I’m not the same person? Like I said Luke shit happens things change. What happens if we can’t be like we used to be anymore? I don’t meant all the fucking and whatever, I mean what happens if we just don’t get along anymore?” Aspeth paused and let out a sigh, letting her arms slid up and grip gently around his biceps, holding him. “I lost you once, which was my fault and it hurt like a bitch, I don’t honestly think I could lose you again” if she let him back in she had to risk losing him again. She was a little disgusted at how emotional she was getting and how completely vulnerable it made her feel.

As he looked down at his boots and then back up at her , guilt rushed over her “I want to stay with you….I just….I don’t know Lukas I’m confused. I don’t even know what the fuck is going on. Seeing you wasn’t something I ever planned on having to do again, not because I didn’t want to I just didn’t think it would happen. I never prepared for it” she was rambling now, worried about saying something that would upset him or make him hate her. Aspeth lent into his chest, letting her arms fall around his waist, hugging him tightly. She couldn’t help but smile as he mentioned bringing her to get laid. “I didn’t think that at all, if you wanted to get laid you could have easily done it at the club. They have rooms for that there” Aspeth however chose not to participate in it. While having sex with stranger was a pat time of hers, guys at clubs just screamed sleaze.


words; seven three seven
lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3
notes; aw, this is going to be epic.

[lukas nathaniel gates]

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“walking away is just what i do luke.” it kind of surprised him a bit how she had responded. he couldn't remember her ever really walking away from him but then again the last time he had seen her everything was simple. there really was no need for her to ever walk away from him. for a moment he silently wished he was eighteen again. back then he didn't pay attention to his feelings and emotions. everything was purely physical and he loved that. he got older and he realized just how much he cared about people when brogan left him that year for college. yea, he always found something to blame on his best friend and he was blaming brogan for fucking him up this badly, making lukas a larger sized version of himself. he didn't know how brogan could take what used to be the love of his life leaving him like that and still being able to put a smile on his face. god did he respect the guy but he had no idea what the fuck was wrong with himself and he wished he had enough control to make this pain in his heart go away. "sometimes you just have to take a risk to see where life wants to take you. if we just go our separate ways we will never know what might have happened if you had just stayed," he responded and then quickly bit his lip. now he was sounding like a fucking fortune cookie! yep, he was going to kill brogan later for this and ask brogan back for his spine. once she grabbed onto his arms his hand found it's way up to her cheek and he gently caressed her with his thumb as he had done earlier in the parking lot. lukas really just wanted to fucking kiss her but he no longer felt like he had the power to just do it anymore. it was as if he was waiting for her to give him some sort of permission now after she had flipped out this last time.

so instead he stayed the proper gentleman and took in what she had to say with a frown. he never expected to see her ever again and he understood that it was a bit unnerving but he felt like he was doing alright with it. she was the one that was going over the edge and it kind of made him feel bad. he couldn't help but think that he should have just had his talk with her in the alley and then said his goodbyes. maybe then she would feel a bit more comfortable and relaxed about the whole thing. "well if it would make you feel any better we can pretend like this whole day never happened and i can just show up at the club tomorrow night and we can try it again," he teased, trying to lighten the mood as he nudged her playfully in her shoulder. then she wrapped her arms around him and he wrapped an arm around her while his free hand found it's way up into her hair, running his fingers slowly through it. lukas gave a slight chuckle at her suggestion and then gave a shrug. "i can't say i haven't done it before but i don't like it that much. i like thinking i have a bit more class than that," he joked before looking down at her. "so does this mean you are staying because it's going to be a little hard to drive you back with you attached to me like this?"

TAGGED: aspeth
MUSE: average
CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, and a plain white wifebeater
COMMENTS: nope... still no kiss haha
CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.

[aspeth emilie blake]

THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROM

cigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks

This wasn’t Aspeth at all. She was basically crumbling to pieces which was something she always gave other people shit about. Where were her defenses? Where was the care free gutsy Aspeth that ever one else saw? Not in this house, apparently. She could have blamed it all on Lukas and said he’d caught her off guard that was why she was jittery. But that was bullshit and she knew it. Aspeth’s heart had been threatening to jump out of her mouth the moment she’d seen him, it was because of him , but it wasn’t his fault. All she could put it down to was growing up and consequences starting to take their toll. That and the fact she was probably secretly in love with the boy and had been denying those feelings for years. Listening to him speak, she couldn’t help but note the wisdom in his voice but it sounded like he was reading out of some kind of Zen book at the same time. “Im worried of what will happen is I stay and I’m worried what will happen if I leave” she admitted a little sheepishly. Aspeth hadn’t ever been very good at making decisions, not about anything important anyway. She preferred to let fate show her a sign but then again she didn’t trust fate at all.

Shutting her eyes as his thumbs caressed her cheeks gently she had the urge to just grab his hand , drag him into a bedroom and make him cuddle her. Aspeth hadn’t ever been the affectionate type. Sex was just sex, she didn’t do that ‘making love’ crap and she didn’t do cuddles and holding hands and rainbows and all that other ridiculous shit most girls wanted. It brought to many emotions into play and emotions weren’t her strong point, as was probably very obvious to him now. The blonde gave a small laugh as he mentioned re-doing their meeting the next day “You know , if you wanted to see me strip again you don’t have to go to a club to watch me do it” that sounded much more like her, teasing him, sexual innuendos, that was the Aspeth he was more accustomed to. It made her feel more like herself as well, none of this mushy crap. She hadn’t ever cared before what Lukas thought of her, just so long as he was willing to stay friends with her, so why did she care so much now? His hand stroking her hair was more then relaxing and Aspeth shut her eyes, listening to his heart thudding inside his ribcage, giving a small smile as his mention of having more class then screwing strippers at clubs.

“Yeah, us strippers really don’t have much class, do we?” Aspeth remembered a long time ago in high school, Lukas had offered to take her to a club, he’d told her she could get up on stage, back then stripping hadn’t seemed like such a bad thing, it would have been for a laugh. Now, for Aspeth it was just life but she couldn’t help but wonder if he was going to judge her because of it, it didn’t seem likely. Pulling back from his chest a little, she glared playfully at him “Attached? I didn’t know you hated hugs , I’ll make a mental note of it” . Letting go of him she stepped back, biting down on her bottom lip a little. She might regret what she was going to do in the morning or even in the next few hours, but she would deal with it then. “I’ll stay, but you have to let me do one thing” . Cursing his height, she moved towards him once more, her hands cupping the sides of his face gently as Aspeth stood on the tips of her toes and pressed her lips to his softly, forcing his mouth to move against hers, still keeping the gentle pace. He could push her away or he could chose to indulge her.

words; six seven two
lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3
notes; ha! There is to a kiss

[lukas nathaniel gates]

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lukas stood there and gently nodded his head at her. oh, he knew all about being afraid of making a decision. he knew all about what that indecision felt like... the indecision caused by trying to figure out what exactly was the right path for you. he used to scare the shit out of himself after he watched the butterfly effect because all he thought about was how just one thing, one tiny thing, could change his life forever. luckily for him, he had made the right decisions so far. lukas was happy with where he currently was and he had no complaints. except for this. for years he walked around and played the game. he never fell too deep and always kept his head above water but aspeth was drowning him. he understood what he was feeling but it was such a foreign emotion to him that it was off-putting. although, lukas refused to run away from it... not until he tried his best to win her over. "what would be the worst thing if you stayed though? that you may have to admit to yourself that you love me? do you really want to stay by yourself for the rest of your life aspeth? i mean, all it seems to me is that you are terrified of being in a relationship with someone that you know would treat you right," he muttered, his face scrunched up into a slightly sad expression while he reached up and gently rubbed the back of his neck. or maybe... maybe she didn't love him like he thought she did. maybe she was just looking for him to be her lawson replacement. now that he wouldn't deal with.

“you know, if you wanted to see me strip again you don’t have to go to a club to watch me do it.” lukas smiled mischievously at her and instinctively raised his eyebrows while he licked his lips. then he fell into a soft chuckle as his eyes slowly wandered over her petite frame for the umpteenth time that night. how characteristically lukas of him. this was how he normally was, hormonally aware of every female and completely charming. he wasn't normally this emotional (thank god) so he was grateful when aspeth switched up as well. he wasn't exactly comfortable in his emotionally aware skin. "well, if you are offering to strip for me babe we can arrange for that. i might even go out and get a pole just for you," he teased, giving her a smile as his hands caressed her hips just before she pulled away.

lukas' lips fell into a joking pout and then he shook his head. "i love hugs... being attached isn't a bad thing. gosh, aspeth," he informed her, a smile still plastered on his face. he moved a bit closer to her to take her in his arms again but then he stopped as she continued to talk. his head cocked automatically to the side while he got a puzzled look on his face. he was confused and yet excited. why he was excited he had no idea but he felt his heart jump a bit as she moved closer. and then her lips were against his. he was kissing her back with no hesitation but the height difference was making kissing difficult for him as always so he reached down and wrapped his arms around her thighs and lifted her up. lukas continued to slowly kiss her back, not straying from her lips with no intention of pulling away. he honestly felt like if he stopped kissing her she would regret what she did and leave him. he wasn't ready for that just yet.

TAGGED: aspeth
MUSE: average
CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, and a plain white wifebeater
COMMENTS: finally replied. kind of shitty. sorry.
CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.

[aspeth emilie blake]

THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROM

cigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks

Aspeth had only ever made bad choices in life. Turning her back on her brothers had been a bad choice , sleeping with Lawson without any protection had been a mistake, leaving with him had been a mistake and possibly her biggest mistake had been leaving Lukas behind. It seemed he was the only person left, possibly in the world who cared about her and she’d just pushed him further and further away. What the hell had she been doing? The blonde chewed on her bottom lip, wishing he wasn’t standing right in front of her so she could think things through more clearly. A little shocked at his words, she stood in silence just looking at him. Love? Relationships? Where had all this come from? This was Lukas! “Are you trying to tell me you love me, Luke?” she asked quietly, raising an eyebrow at him. “That’s a bad move, you know I’ll just break your heart” it wouldn’t be that she’d want to, Aspeth just didn’t know how to do anything but. “I don’t do relationships Lukas, I wasn’t dating Law we were just…fucking and he paid for everything”
She shrugged, knowing he wouldn’t like hearing it, but that’s just how it was. “And I don’t want to fuck things up with you again” which would more then likely happen if they got together.

All this emotional crap was making her tired. Feelings were not Aspeth’s strong point and so she was glad when he went along with her teasing, raising his eye brows and licking his lips in typical Lukas fashion. It seemed he really hadn’t changed. Giving a small laugh, she shook her head. “You think I need a pole to strip? I just need some space and the right incentive”, the blonde winked at him playfully, feeling her skin prickle as he caressed her hips gently. The incentive she’d been talking about was sex, of course, she was hoping he hadn’t taken that as her wanting to be paid for it. Lukas was …well he was Lukas there was no way to explain what they were it was too complicated. But somewhere, she knew she loved him. But admitting it was the hard part and Aspeth wasn’t sure she could do that. She doubted herself far too often. Why couldn’t she just sleep with him and whoever else she wanted, like back in high school? Why did he suddenly want something serious? She wasn’t ready for all that but she wanted him back in her life. Aspeth knew how much drama she caused though and was attempting to save him the trouble.

As he said he loved hugs, she laughed and stepped forwards again, ready to hug him however he stopped as she started talking and it was almost obvious to see the excitement in his face, a look that pulled on her heart strings. She hadn’t imagined she’d still have that effect on him this many years later, the same effect he had on her. His lips moved against hers and Aspeth felt a spark light within her, placing a hand gently on his cheek as the kiss continued, something rather tender between the two of them. Feeling his hands wrap around her thighs, she smirked into their kiss and felt him life her, instinctively wrapping her legs tightly around his waist. It felt so right, this was so…them. He’d always picked her up to get better access to her lips and she’d never complained, simply thanking god for his strength. Sliding a hand up behind his head, she pulled him in closer , turning their kiss into something more fierce, the way she was used to being. Tugging on his bottom lip she pulled back for a moment, her thumb stroking the side of his cheek as she lent their foreheads together. “God I missed you”. Without waiting for an answer, Aspeth had captured his lips again and was making sure her previous statement was deadly obvious.


words; six six oh.
lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3
notes; heh, you think yours was shit? :/