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Post by lukas nathaniel gates on Jan 13, 2010 1:35:17 GMT -5
___________________________________________ the old school black classic mustang sat still at the traffic light, the red glinting slightly off of the flawless candy paint job, while lukas quick took a glance at his phone. his current twitter reply read @lukeduke yes, i still love you. go out, have fun, be careful. call me when you're finished. he couldn't help but laugh at it before pocketing his phone, putting his car and gear and speeding off from the now green traffic light. brogan: his main man, his brother, his best friend, and sometimes his gay lover for the ever curious fans of twisted aggression. it was always a humorous act to put on but it was kind of true. lukas would never love someone the way he did brogan. that boy was there through everything and it was still slightly unbelievable that lukas was so close to losing him just a few years ago. really, he felt like he owed his life to his fellow band member for all of the times that he had had lukas's back. he quickly pushed the sappy, sentimental thoughts from his mind as he neared the strip club. it wasn't his usual place but that was exactly what he needed. he didn't need the girls coming up to him and asking him if they could go back to his place. honestly, he was already tired of them and as much of an asshole as he was he didn't want to reject them. being mean wasn't in his repertoire for tonight. he just wanted to drink some jack while watching some pretty girls in peace. that wasn't that hard to ask for yet the change of venue was necessary.
after parking the car and locking the doors, he walked through the parking lot and up to the front door. he was automatically greeted but a couple of bouncers once he had the door open but he was used to it. it was very rare that wherever he went there wasn't some type of security there. giving them a slight smile and a nod of his head, he walked past them and over to the crowd of gentlemen around the stage to sit down at one of the last remaining empty tables. it wasn't long after that he was interrupted by a scantily clad waitress asking him if he wanted a drink. "uhhhh... i guess i'll take jack on the rocks and an ashtray if you have them," he replied in his deep voice, while he reached in his jacket pocket to pull out a pack of smokes in preparation. the waitress walked off and came back a few minutes later with his requested drink and ashtray, putting both on the table before she took the money he handed her and left again. he propped up his feet on the chair opposite him and placed a cigarette between his lips to light it. once it was lit he placed the pack on the table along with the lighter and finally looked up at the girls. an almost naked brunette shimmied around the stage and did a wonderful pole dance to the applaud of the gentlemen around him but lukas stayed quiet and reserved as he smoked and drank. after all, he wasn't one of those guys to go apeshit over a naked girl like that. he wasn't an animal as much as he appeared to be.
the brunette finally picked her tips off the stage along with her clothing and ran off only for a blonde to step up. luke sat there confused and watched her for a minute. then he dropped his feet off the chair and sat up straight, leaning across the table as if those few inches of distance would have made a difference. finally he squinted his eyes to see if that would change his perspective. no. he knew that girl like that back of his hand. he knew every tattoo, every scar, every piercing that she had and he felt his heart drop into his stomach. he crushed his half finished cigarette in the ashtray and took a large swig of his drink before pushing his chair back and standing up, walking slowly over to the stage. he didn't know what he would do. the thought of snatching her off of the stage invaded his mind but he knew that would be a really bad thing to do. after all, lukas wasn't looking to start any trouble. instead, he walked up on the side of her and as she faced away from him and started to dance he grabbed her hand and then slid a one hundred dollar bill under the string of her underwear. "aspeth, i want to see you after you are done," he said softly and then let her hand go. before she could ever reply he walked back amongst the tables and finally sat back down, picking up his glass and finishing it off before calling for the waitress and ordering another one. it was going to be a long night.
TAGGED: aspeth MUSE: average CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, a plain white wifebeater, and a black leather jacket COMMENTS: i love reunions! CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.
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Post by aspeth emilie blake on Jan 13, 2010 2:14:48 GMT -5
THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROMcigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks “Fuck it…has anyone seen my blush?” the heavily tattooed blonde called out, although it was pointless because no one heard her. While outside in the main area of the club the only noise that could be heard was some sleazy music, the dressing room was a different story. Half naked girls ran around, fluffing their hair , adjusting what little clothing they did have on and above all, gossiping. Aspeth rolled her eyes and turned back to face herself in the mirror, pouting a little. Two years ago, if someone had told her she’d be making her living as a stripper, she would have laughed at them. Not that stripping seemed like such a bad thing, men stared at you and lusted after you all night; the attention was something Aspeth loved, she always had. However she hadn’t fully understood the concept then and hadn’t realized how much of a shitty industry it was. She had her own set of rules, she never slept with anyone inside the club, and she never actually slept with anyone from the club either. Something about the men here just screamed sleazy and while Aspeth wasn’t picky about who she slept with, she did have some standards. Reaching beside her to another girls dressing area, she grabbed a brush and a tub of blush, swiping it over her cheeks gently before inspecting herself. It was going to have to, she couldn’t be bothered getting completely made up tonight, after all she was already wearing more then enough make up.
Pulling herself up from her chair, the blonde grabbed the heels next to her chair and slipped them on. Her outfit consisted of a red and black corset that unzipped at the front and a black lace g-string. She wasn’t into the costumes like some of the other girl. After all, she was here to take it all off anyway. Walking swiftly across the room, she watched as a tall brunette lent down, picking her tips up. Aspeth had no idea who the other girl was, but she knew her time was slotted now. Jogging the few steps to the side of the stage , Aspeth squinted a little as the lights shone right into her eyes. Taking her place on stage, she waited until the music started. This was all so routine to her, the movements, the music. Same shit, different day. Running her hands down the side of her body, Aspeth bit down on her bottom lip and looked out into the audience, something she’d found caught a lot of attention. Playing coy got her more tips. Her fingers found the zip at the front of her corset and she undid it slightly, before adding the pole beside her into her routine. Turning from the audience for a moment to show them her back, she felt someone grab her hand. Jerking back in shock, she looked down. It took a moment for the realization to set in, but her mouth dropped a little in shock. Her heart which had previously been beating at a normal speed started to race suddenly. What the fuck was Lukas doing there?
His words caught her off guard and before she could reply, he’d walked away. This was not good. Trying to push the thoughts racing through her mind away, she turned again, now feeling self conscious. It was easier stripping when she didn’t know anyone, him being there changed things though. Unzipping the rest of her corset, she pulled it off and stood for a few moments, listen to the cheers of drunk men. The lights dimmed and she didn’t even bother to pick the money up off the stage. Jumping down the stairs, Aspeth ran into the dressing room, before grabbing her bench for support, struggling to breath. It wasn’t like seeing Lukas was a bad thing, it was the place she was in. It wasn’t exactly what she’d pictured for herself, not that she was complaining but somehow being here when he saw her just felt wrong. She’d left Lawson because she’d wanted to do something with her life and this wasn’t exactly something to be proud of. Grabbing a shirt off the racks she pulled it over herself and buttoned it, noticing the 100 dollar bill sticking out from her g-string. Not bothering to pull anything over her almost bare ass, she ripped the money out and balled it in her fist. Time to face the inevitable.
Slipping out behind one of the curtains, she stood looking out into the crowd, looking for Lukas. Spotting him at one of the corner tables, she ignored the men slurring at her and trying to grab her ass, staring straight at him. Once she was beside his table, she slammed the bill down in front of him, stepping back a little “I don’t want your money, Luke” she spoke stiffly, a little defensive. Aspeth felt like she’d been caught doing something illegal. Crossing her arms over her chest, she bit her bottom lip gently, observing him. He still looked the same. ‘What are you doing here Lukas?
words; eight four seven lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3 notes; aw, this is going to be epic.
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Post by lukas nathaniel gates on Jan 13, 2010 2:45:25 GMT -5
___________________________________________ lukas sat there in silence, sipping on his drink, and puffing on his re-lit fag as he watched her seductively saunter across the stage. eventually he had had enough of watching her and he dropped his eyes to his cell phone. there was nothing that he could possibly do besides send frantic messages to brogan and he did only for his best friend to tell him not to touch the blonde or else he'd get diseases. sometimes brogan really pissed him off and this was one of those moments. it was something that he had never really admitted to but he had cared a lot for aspeth. she was the closest thing he had to a relationship as fucking unstable as it was and it really did hurt him to see her choose his best friend lawson over him. as much as he loved the dude, he was a fucking asshole and screwed up way more than him and brogan ever could be. he would have had no problem being second best to brogan but being second best to a guy who was seriously fucked in the head bothered him to no end. but who the hell could he admit that to? brogan would just laugh at him. so lukas went about his business, ignoring the existence of aspeth until he found out that lawson had disappeared with the blonde on his arm. really, lukas didn't think he would ever have to see her again but here she was and now he had to admit to himself the fact that aspeth was something special to him. he didn't like the way that made him feel.
lukas was all caught up in his thoughts and with arguing with brogan that he hadn't even heard her approach until she slapped the hundred dollar bill down on the table in front of him. his golden eyes lifted from his cell phone to meet hers and he quickly noticed the attitude that was rolling off of her in waves. she was getting defensive? why the hell was she getting defensive? he quickly looked back down at the money and he slid it off of the table and put it back in his pocket. "good because i meant to give you a one dollar bill anyways," he retorted through pursed lips before looking back up at her. "why do you think i am here aspeth? my habits haven't changed. i came for a few drinks and to check out the girls. that's why i usually come to a strip club." he put his cigarette between his lips and inhaled deeply before exhaling with a laugh, the smoke clouding around his head before dispersing into the air. "honestly though, you are fucking hilarious. you leave me for a fucking scum bag and you are the defensive one? really, aspeth? i see you still aren't the fucking sharpest tool in the mother fucking shed. so what? he left your ass and you decided to come back home to become a stripper? such a great job though i'm not surprised, you always enjoyed getting naked for everyone," he muttered sarcastically, already wanting to take back what he had said but it was already out there. lukas gave her a slightly apologetic glance before he picked up his drink and took a large gulp of it, staring ahead at the stage as if he was interested but it was mostly to get his thoughts together.
TAGGED: aspeth MUSE: average CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, a plain white wifebeater, and a black leather jacket COMMENTS: poor poor luke. CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.
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Post by aspeth emilie blake on Jan 13, 2010 3:37:04 GMT -5
THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROMcigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks Seeing Lukas again brought back a lot of emotions she hadn’t wanted to feel. For the most part, Aspeth was still the same. She still loved sex, and slept around frequently although she was a little safer these days. She was still sarcastic and she still used her body to get what she wanted. But she was independent now and she didn’t reply on anyone. The people she’d relied on, although had never verbalized it, had left her or caused her to leave. That was why she was so defensive, Lukas had left her, at least that’s what she’d been told. He hadn’t even said goodbye so welcoming him with open arms wasn’t something on the top of her to do list. His own defensive attitude hit her hard and she shook her head in disbelief. Lukas had always had the ability to be an ass hole but he’d never been one to her. “Wouldn’t matter if it was a dime, I don’t want your money Lukas. “ she spoke again, glancing around her. She highly doubted he would make a scene in the middle of a club but if he did, Lukas was likely to get his ass dragged out by security guards. Turning her attention back to him she gave a curt nod. Of course, He’d always been a bit of a sex addict himself and for a moment Aspeth had forgotten that Strip clubs were almost like a second home for Lukas.
Waving her hand to brush the smoke away, Aspeth stared at him with large blue eyes as he continued to speak. His words hurt, but she was trying not to let them show. “I never left you” she spoke quietly, turning her gaze away from him, blinking back the tears that threatened to fall. God, why was she being so emotional, this was Lukas, he knew her as a tough ass who brushed everything away. But things with Lawson had shaken her up and everything in her life the past few years had been so unstable. She’d always cared about Luke and the words he was spitting out at her felt like someone was stabbing her. “I never left you Lukas, you left us! You and Lawson were the only things I had that meant anything and you left, you didn’t even say goodbye, don’t turn this bullshit around on me” inside, she couldn’t yell at him, but she wanted to, very badly. Instead she was speaking in an aggravated voice, the hysteria becoming more and more evident. “You were meant to be my best friend” she said quietly, chewing on her nail as he continued to rant at her. Eyes opening a little wider then normal, Aspeth turned her back to him taking in a shaky breath. She didn’t want to look at him anymore.
“Lawson took care of me” although it sounded like a question, even to her, she wasn’t telling the truth. Lawson had paid for everything and used her for sex, just as much as she had used him. They were the most dysfunctional pair to have roamed the planet. Lukas had always known she liked to show off her body, but his words, she was sure were intended and degrading. Turning back around, she place her hand on his table, leaning over to glare at him “You don’t know jack shit Lukas. You know why I’m working as a stripper. I failed my senior year, because I was fucking around with you and Lawson and I didn’t want to repeat. Lawson told me he’d take care of me and he did. But shit happens and things change, you know why I’m here Luke, I don’t have the fucking skills to do anything else” with her little rant over she turned from him , stomping away from him. This was too much drama for her to deal with. Throwing the curtain back, Aspeth slipped into the dressing rooms and grabbed her deck from her bag before pushing the door to the side street open and leaning against the wall. Aspeth wiped a tear from her cheek and pulled a cigarette out, lighting it with a shaky hand.
words; seven oh three lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3 notes; aw, this is going to be epic.
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Post by lukas nathaniel gates on Jan 13, 2010 4:05:10 GMT -5
___________________________________________ suddenly every ounce of him that felt horrible about the things he said vanished as her words left him reeling. they made absolutely no fucking sense and aspeth didn't have a clue. a friend? sure, they got along well but there was no denying the fact that they were more than just friends. she couldn't possibly stand there and say that every time they fucked they were just friends. hell if that was how things worked then lukas would have already fucked brogan. no, aspeth was never just his friend and how could she possibly think that he would stick around while she held lawson above him and got herself knocked up with his baby? she was a fucking moron but before he even had time to yell back at her she stalked off towards backstage and disappeared behind the curtain. he clenched his teeth together and quickly finished his smoke and his drink before pushing himself up from the table and walking back towards the front door. before he could even make it outside one of the bouncers stopped him. "sir, is everything okay?" he asked, a sense of power residing in just those words and lukas couldn't help but feel threatened. he took a deep breath to calm himself before throwing on a slight smile and shaking his head no. "old friend. i haven't seen her in a while and we didn't part on such good terms. everything is okay though," he assured them before walking outside. once the door was shut he bolted around to the other side of the building, happy that he had found her.
he slowly walked up to her and grabbed her wrists before pinning them down at her sides and holding her firmly yet not forcefully up against the wall. "now you fucking listen to me because you have your story so fucking twisted that you make no sense. first off, don't fucking walk away from me. if you want to get an attitude with me you stay put until i've had my say. now, i didn't fucking leave you. i've been in LA my entire life. i haven't gone anywhere even when brogan went off to college. i've always been here so YOU fucking left ME... and with HIM. yet how you think i could have remained your friend after all of that bullshit you put me through i can't comprehend. aspeth, i hate to break it to you but we really stopped being friends the first time we fucked. end of story." he paused and loosened his grip on her once he was sure she wasn't going to run away. lukas didn't exactly want to make her feel like he was holding her there against her will. "and i'm sorry but i have to disagree with you. obviously lawson didn't fucking take care of you if you are here. and don't go ahead and give me some damn sob story about how this was the only option. there are plenty of jobs out there that provide training. you could have done something like that. i dropped out of school before any of you guys and now i'm in a pretty well known band. you could have easily caught up with some guys at a show and become their merch girl or something. don't tell me you didn't have any options. and don't fucking blame your situation on me. if you would have stayed with me right now you wouldn't be doing this. no, you left with your prince charming and you got landed here," he blurted rather quickly and then shook his head. lukas was kind of in shock at the shit that he said and how vulnerable it made him feel. it wasn't like he straight out said that he loved her but it felt dangerously close to it. his fingers let go of her one by one and then he took a few steps away from her and began to kick an empty water bottle around. distractions, distractions.
TAGGED: aspeth MUSE: average CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, a plain white wifebeater, and a black leather jacket COMMENTS: i was going to have him manhandle her more but i decided against it. CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.
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Post by aspeth emilie blake on Jan 13, 2010 4:35:18 GMT -5
THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROMcigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks The cigarette in-between her lips was just barely lit and Aspeth had only just sucked in a much needed drag before she felt her wrists suddenly being pinned up against the wall. Blowing the smoke out into Lukas’s face, she struggled against his wrist’s, although it was pointless. He was a lot stronger then her, they both knew that. The wall was cold against her skin and made her shiver ” Lukas what the F…” she was cut off by his rather demanding tone. Aspeth glared at him, what gave him the right to come out here, push her against a wall and tell her what she could and couldn’t do? She stayed quiet though and listened to him as he yelled at her. Her expression changed from one of anger to one of confusion. “What are you talking about? You left to go look for work, Law said….” her words trailed off as things finally clicked together. Lawson had always been fucked in the head, they all knew that but she didn’t understand why he would have told her that Luke left. She loved both of them, although Lukas was more openly affectionate, Lawson preferred to tease her but that was just how they were. Staring at him for a moment she shook her head against the wall, she didn’t intend on running now. “We were always friends Lukas, You knew how things were. That was us, I was fucking you, I was fucking Lawson, I was fucking half the god dam school, and you all knew that!”
Aspeth knew what he was saying, but she was playing dumb, commitment wasn’t something she was a fan of. Hell she’d never been committed, she’d never admitted to loving anyone. At one stage she could remember telling Lukas love didn’t exist, he’d corrected her but she’d always stuck to her guns. “I went looking for you, after all that shit with the baby happened, I wanted to see you” her words were a little calmer now, like she was trying to explain it to him. She was so confused. “Law said you guys fought and you left because Brogan did, I don’t….” she was clearly frustrated, not sure who to believe anymore. Aspeth gave a bitter laugh and attempted to pull her wrist free of him, failing again. “Sob story? There is no fucking sob story. I stayed with Law for a couple of years, he was fucked up, I knew that but believe it or not Lukas he stayed with me and he did look after me. Lawson always looked after me” she wanted what Luke was saying to be wrong. She’d trusted Lawson and it seemed he’d been fucking with her the whole time. Part of her was relived to hear that he was doing okay, that he was making a life for himself doing something he was good at. “Good for you but if you haven’t noticed, I don’t have any musical ability so I can’t go and join a god dam band and ride off into the sunset like you did”
Scoffing, she shook her head once more, wanting to get to her cigarette but his hands stopped her. What he was saying wasn’t making any sense. “Stayed with you? How could I have stayed with you? I couldn’t find you!” taking in a deep breath, as he let go of her wrists. Taking in a drag of her smoke, she flicked the burnt out ash away and tried to make eye contact with him “Lawson wasn’t a prince charming, Lukas” it was hard for her to talk about anything that involved emotion and this was much more drama then she’d ever been prepared for. “I landed here because Law got abusive. I left him, I wasn’t going to stay with him so he could take his shit out on me and when I left him, I left everything behind. I just got up and went” she paused for a moment letting her words sink in. “I wanted you Lukas, I wanted to go and find you but I was so angry at you for leaving me and I figured if I ever tried, you’d tell me to fuck off” Dropping her smoke on the ground, she stubbed it out with her heel sighing. “I don’t do rejection, you know that”. The blonde shivered, her lack of clothing wasn’t a smart way to dress in the winter. She didn’t want his sympathy and she didn’t want to hear what he was telling her. Aspeth had convinced herself she didn’t need anyone, but he was making her question that and uprooting everything she knew.
words; seven eight eight lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3 notes; aw, this is going to be epic.
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Post by lukas nathaniel gates on Jan 13, 2010 15:38:52 GMT -5
___________________________________________ an anger tinged smile spread his lips. he couldn't explain it but he wanted to laugh. he wanted to laugh at how easily she believe lawson and he wanted to laugh at the fact that lawson had to step so low as to lie to her. this whole situation became hilarious to him but he didn't laugh. he just simply shook his head and rolled his eyes at her. there was no way in hell that aspeth really went out of her way to look for him. she took what law had told her at face value and never went looking for him. after all, it wasn't like she went and called brogan or went to go talk to his mother. sure, she might have not been much help with that state that she is in but she could have led aspeth to a few places when lukas would be or where people would know where he was. really, aspeth couldn't have wanted him as much as she was trying to make him believe because she didn't even try. "and you believed him aspeth? where the hell would i have gone? you didn't try to fucking find me. you couldn't possibly have tried because you obviously didn't call brogan. you obviously didn't call my mom. there were so many people you could have went to to find me but you didn't, did you?" he asked her. luke knew she would try to lie but he knew her better than herself and so her lies didn't go over his head; he usually caught them all as soon as they dripped from her lips.
he pushed the bottle around in a circle with the tip of his shoe as he considered what she had said about them being friends. of course lukas knew who she was fucking. at the time he was young and naive and didn't give a fuck who she was sleeping with. but as he got older and he looked back at that time in his life it was as if the whole situation turned into something completely different. it was hard to forget the way he kissed her and the way he caressed her when they were together and it only took a couple years of wisdom for him to see that aspeth was something else altogether to him. he never cared so much about a girl, he never went to lengths to make sure a girl was happy, and he sure as hell never let some girl he was just shagging stay the night in his bed with him. it was different and he knew she knew that but like him she just felt more comfortable denying it. time hadn't changed them very much.
luke listened to her continue to throw excuse after excuse at him but finally she made him stop. he looked down at his scuffed up boots and his jaw clenched automatically. lawson had hit her?! why the hell would he have gone and done something like that? but then after he quickly thought over the dynamic creature that was his friend his anger subsided and his jaw loosened. who the hell was he trying to kid? brogan and lukas became this rock for lawson and they always kept him grounded. once he left luke could only imagine him becoming this ticking time bomb, ready to explode at any moment, when his rock was nowhere to be found. he imagined law being completely wasted and high on whatever he picked up along the day and of course aspeth would come home and maybe just say one thing the wrong way and all hell would have broken loose. he wasn't surprised; lawson was capable of anything. luke turned to face her, his eyes locking with hers before he finally took the few steps over to her. he slowly and hesitantly reached up and placed a hand on her cheek, gently caressing her before sweeping her hair out of her face. "you should have came and found me," he whispered softly as he leaned down and pressed his lips to hers in a tender kiss.
TAGGED: aspeth MUSE: average CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, a plain white wifebeater, and a black leather jacket COMMENTS: yey for kissing! lol CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.
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Post by aspeth emilie blake on Jan 13, 2010 17:49:46 GMT -5
THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROMcigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks
In all honesty, the blonde didn’t think she was lying at all. It might have seemed like it to him but this was simply her version of reality and her version of what she knew. Anger washed over her again as he questioned her judgment. Truth be told it really wasn’t a smart choice to go with Lawson. Maybe at the time it was but looking back on it now she could see it was the wrong thing to do but that was all hind sight and Aspeth didn’t need him pushing it in her face and bragging about it. “Of course I believed him. It was Lawson, he wasn’t in the habit of lying to me. At least not that I was awear of” she didn’t know what he’d expected her to do. It wasn’t like she was going to put out a search and rescue for him. “You didn’t exactly make the effort to see me either” she knew that was an assumption and she was deflecting, but it fit pretty well for her. After all, she hadn’t seen him in almost five years. The sad thing was he still looked exactly the same and she was sure if she could get him to smile he’d have the same innocent looking dimples. The ones that had always put her at ease when she saw them. Shaking her head a little Aspeth pursed her lips. She needed to get her head out of the past. Things were different now. However it seemed the two of them really weren’t.
Lukas evoked a range of different emotions in her, he always had. He had once been a place of security for her, he’d kept her grounded and while she wouldn’t admit it, made her feel loved. She had gotten a pretty good set up for herself back in high school, she had two guys who had gone out of their way to make sure she was happy and comfortable and she’d taken it for granted. While Lawson was rough and was more interested in raw animalistic sex, Lukas had always been the gentler one. He’d been the one she could depend on when she needed him and it had taken her a while to see that. But the possibility that she felt more for Lukas then she let on was to much of a hassle to even think about. Once words liked ‘care ,adore, even love’ were being thrown around, everyone ended up getting hurt and the situation ended up being fucked up. She knew that was exactly the reason she didn’t want him to say the things he was saying because all it did as tell Aspeth he did care. He was angry at her because he cared. Maybe that was why she’d gone with Lawson. He never brought emotions into the mix and Aspeth was always willing to take the easy way out.
The tension in his body became evident as he refused to look at her. Aspeth rolled her eyes , he didn’t need to get mad. Everyone knew Lawson would snap sooner or later it was a lucky thing he’d lost it around her and not one of his one night stands who couldn’t take it and probably would have pressed charges. Aspeth just took it and left, she didn’t need the sympathy and she sure as hell didn’t need to be getting guilt tripped from Lukas. She knew where she was right now wasn’t the best possible place to be but it was where she’d ended up and the blond had learned to accept it. The warning signs in her body set off as soon as he moved closer to her again , if he was going to try and pin her to a wall against she was going to have to take some measures to pull away. Instead he placed a hand on her cheek, the affectionate move catching her off guard. Lifting a hand she placed it gently over his wrist, holding him there. It was hard not to look into his eyes, but it was a mistake. As soon as she did, Aspeth felt her insides melt, she felt weak; the kind of weak she’d been trying to avoid feeling. “I know” she spoke in a whisper, pressing her lips back as tenderly against his, her free hand instinctively running up his back and over the top of his head gently. Since when the hell did Aspeth do gently?
Pulling back she lent her forehead on his, sighing. If he planned on staying in here or even in her life, everything was going to get more complicated and Aspeth wasn’t sure she was ready for that whirlwind of drama. “I missed you Lukas Gates” there was no way in hell he could have thought that was a lie, there was far to much honesty in her words, especially for Aspeth . Holding him in place gently, Aspeth leant forwards again pressing her lips back to his softly, showing him how she felt the only way she knew how. Through her body.
words; eight four two lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3 notes; they are to cute for words.
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Post by lukas nathaniel gates on Jan 13, 2010 19:01:56 GMT -5
___________________________________________ it was true. lukas didn't go out of his way to find aspeth but he honestly didn't see the need in doing so. in his mind back then aspeth already made her choice and really, lukas didn't see the point in sticking around. sure, he could deal with a lot of shit back then but he wasn't going to stand by and watch her cozy up to his best friend like that. plus, he left school to go do something with his life. keeping lawson and her around wasn't going to help him find a job. so when brogan left to better himself, he pretty much cut off all of his old bad influences just so he could get his head together to get a stable job. of course, his plans didn't work out very well and he ended up having to stay with his mother for a bit until he got on his feet. though, the job he had didn't last long until brogan came back from college to save him. that was only when his life really started to get turned around and by then aspeth was gone. he had no idea where the hell they went and really, why the hell would he go out and attempt to look for her? in the end she stuck with her choice and that was all that had mattered.
and yet here they were, right back to square one as if the last five years had never happened. lukas just continued to look down at her and he quickly noticed the quick change in her demeanor, from on edge to something a bit more unlike aspeth. suddenly it was as if she grew up and finally realized that there were some emotions to be felt when it came to someone you cared about. that it was okay to feel. but he knew her. lukas knew that once he left her she would probably beat herself up about the way she felt, the way she let herself feel vulnerable around him. hell, lukas didn't know what to think either. he was the guy that never fell in love and so he didn't know if that was what he was feeling when he felt her lips against his and the way she so gently ran her hand up his back. it felt wonderful and for once lukas didn't have the urge to rush things or make things aggressive. but it quickly ended and he simply rested his forehead against hers for a moment, a faint smile on his face, before he slowly ran the tip of his nose up the bridge of her nose and across her forehead before placing a kiss there. then he wrapped his large arms around her waist and held her small frame to him until she placed her hands on his face and coaxed him back down to her level. her lips were back on his and he happily returned her kiss, embracing her a bit tighter before he pulled away and began placing tiny kisses along her collarbone until he reached her ear. "i miss you too, aspeth blake," his voice a little huskier than usual before he placed a tender kiss on her neck. "go get your stuff, i'm taking you home," he informed her, quickly pulling away from her and giving her a pat on her ass. "go."
TAGGED: aspeth MUSE: average CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, a plain white wifebeater, and a black leather jacket COMMENTS: i was distracted throughout this entire post. i hope it's not shitty. CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.
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Post by aspeth emilie blake on Jan 13, 2010 20:50:11 GMT -5
THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROMcigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks Things right now felt very surreal, if someone had told Aspeth she was going to see Lukas Gates that night, she would have laughed and told them to fuck off. Not only because it seemed impossible but because she was fairly certain she hadn’t wanted to then. Watching him with soft blue eyes as their foreheads lent together, she caught the faint smile he gave and noticed the dimples in his cheeks, just a small indentation but they were still there. Bringing her hand around to the side of his face, Aspeth let her thumbs roll over the now smooth skin. She felt like she was re-learning him, not that she really needed to. Aspeth knew Lukas’s body inside out and probably better then her own. “I always loved your dimples” she said absent mindedly, letting her eyes flutter shut as he ran his nose up her own and across her forehead. She hadn’t ever been this affectionate with anyone before, especially behind the back of an alley. Aspeth normally just fucked people then kicked them out, or left straight afterwards. She didn’t want to be hanging around some random guys’ apartment .She hated that he still knew all her weak spots, it wasn’t like she’d changed all that much.
Letting her head roll to the side as he placed kisses along her collar bone, she realized that if someone saw them out there, they would probably think she was a hooker. She was dressed like one after all. Not resisting at all as he wrapped his muscular arms around her, she lent into him a little, closing her eyes. This was all to familiar and comfortable. Hearing his voice reverberate in her ear made the blonde shudder. What was she doing, she as basically letting herself be seduced by someone in an alley, although that someone was Lukas it was still out of character for her. She did the seducing, not the other way around. Aspeth stared in confusion as he pulled back from her “I can’t just leave Lukas….I have to go on again later and I….” staring at him standing there, waiting expectantly for her washed away the rest of excuses she was starting to build. She didn’t want to upset him again. God she was turning into such a sap. Stepping forwards she placed a quick kiss on his cheek before turning to walk back through the back entrance. Stopping in the door frame Aspeth looked behind herself and bit down on her bottom lip gently. “Give me a couple of minutes, okay?”
Jogging through the dressing room, she grabbed her bag and threw her phone inside in, before switching her heels for flat shoes, making her appear a hell of a lot shorter then before. Slipping a short skirt over her legs, she glanced at herself in the mirror, what she was doing was crazy. There was so much crap she was going to have to deal with later. She’d more then likely lose her job, which meant she’d lose her apartment and that would fuck things up royally. Knowing she’d probably regret this decision later, the blonde turned and walked back out to the alley, her bag over one arm. Leaning against the doorframe she couldn’t help but smile at Lukas, “So, where are we going?” it might have seemed to an outsider that they were already falling back into their same pattern. But Aspeth was determined not to let him do anything for her. She was independent now and that meant she could make her own choices. Her choice was to follow wherever he wanted to lead her. Taking the few shorts steps that closed the distance between them, Aspeth took his hand gently, entwining their fingers as she looked up at him, a mixture of emotions splattered across her face.
words; six four two lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3 notes; aw, this is going to be epic.
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Post by lukas nathaniel gates on Jan 13, 2010 23:53:42 GMT -5
___________________________________________ lukas's features set into a stony expression as she began to through excuses at him but then she finally paused, looking a bit confused herself. he knew what strippers had to do and he knew she would have a couple more time slots to fill throughout the night before she could leave but he didn't care. he wanted her to leave with him now and he honestly didn't give a fuck about what the consequences would be. then again, she didn't exactly have a reason to care either. it wasn't like she was still stuck in LA by herself; she had him now and she knew that he would take care of her, especially since he now had the money to do it. and it quickly appeared that she didn't care after all as she stopped in the doorway after placing a kiss on his cheek. “Give me a couple of minutes, okay?” she asked of him and he gave her a quick smile, his character dimples more pronounced on his face.
as soon as she left him he leaned casually against the wall and reached into his pocket to pull out a smoke and a lighter to light it. once he was set he put everything back into his pocket and puffed a bit on the cigarette that hung loosely from his lips. exhaling through his nose, he watched as a couple of obviously drunk guys made their ways out of the strip club and made their way down the sidewalk probably in search of some place to go eat or somewhere where they could score some drugs. looking at them and the way they were dressed he was going to go with the latter option. however, his people watching didn't last long as he began to reminisce of all of the times that he had spent with aspeth... at least the ones he could remember. there weren't many of those that he could remember thanks to all of the brain damage that his years of alcohol abuse had caused but there were still a remaining few. he remembered the time they fucked at her place and the way she went down on him (still something he didn't pay her back for) and he remembered how she looked when she came to him to tell him that she got knocked up. looking back on the way their relationship was back then things had definitely changed and lukas didn't think they could ever get back to a happy-go-lucky fuck fest as it used to be. it was kind of unfortunate.
before he could stand there and psychologically evaluate every memory he had, aspeth was back and standing at the door. he reached up and took the cigarette from between his lips after taking a long hit and exhaling a cloud of smoke. "i was thinking my place unless you want to go somewhere else? we could go grab a bite to eat or something if you are hungry. i mostly have junk food at my place," he warned her. lukas was honestly surprised the way she grabbed his hand and the way she twined her fingers between his but he didn't let his emotions show and held her hand right back as if that was natural for the pair. "you tell me where you want to go and i'll take you." for a moment he gently rubbed the back of her hand with his thumb before he began walking slowly with her through the parking lot and to his car. normally she would have taken care of herself and hopped in but he decided to see just how much he could push the envelope. walking with her to the passenger side of his mustang, he opened her door and then slowly let go of her hand so she could get in before he walked around and hopped in the driver's side. he slipped his key in the ignition and revved the engine to life before pulling out of his parking spot and stopping at the parking lot's exit. "so where to babe?" he asked, his golden eyes falling on her while one hand rested on the stick shift and his other hand rested on the top of the steering wheel.
TAGGED: aspeth MUSE: average CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, a plain white wifebeater, and a black leather jacket COMMENTS: i was distracted throughout this entire post. i hope it's not shitty. CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.
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Post by aspeth emilie blake on Jan 14, 2010 0:32:18 GMT -5
THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROMcigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks Aspeth really couldn’t have cared where they were going. She’d traveled around most of the country and seen things some people would never see, slept in some of the most horrible motels around the country. It was simply of matter of making herself at home wherever she was and she was good at doing that. She nodded at him, with a faint smile “Your place sounds fine and I’m not hungry, so don’t worry about it” . A feeling of terror swept over her for a moment as the realization of what was happening hit her. She was bringing Lukas back into her life which was completely selfish of her. Aspeth knew if she asked for something he’d more then likely give it to her, simply because that’s how he was. While in the past she’d been okay with this and being spoiled had been something she loved above all else, now she felt guilty about it. Shaking the thoughts from her head she focused on his thumb which was rubbing the back on her hand. Part of her wanted to tell him how much she’d missed him, that she’d though about him everyday. But it was all too emotional and Aspeth didn’t handle her emotions very well at all, in the past she’d just drunk herself stupid and got high. She had changed a little bit, she’d grown up and been responsible, but she still knew no physical limits. Which was why it was so easy for her to simply take his hand like they’d been together for years.
Laughing at his offer, Aspeth shook her head “That’s a dangerous offer Luke, I might ask you to take me to Rome” she wouldn’t of course but his offer did pose endless possibilities. As they started to walk towards his car, Aspeth looked up at him instead of in front of herself “You know, smoking shit” she wanted him to know this, as if this would grant her his approval. Aspeth had always felt like they were even, on the same page but now things seemed off balance to her. Lukas was making a name for himself, he was obviously well off now and was going somewhere. Where as she wasn’t and she didn’t. Aspeth’s family didn’t want anything to do with her anymore, which was a slightly heart breaking fact for her seeing as she adored her brother. But they were all years older then her and no longer approved of her lifestyle. “I’ve been clean for almost two years now” Aspeth had never been involved to heavily involved in the drug scene, but she was known to take cocaine on the odd occasion and usually had an array of party pills stashed somewhere .After all the baby crap happened, she’d sunk heavily back into it, not that anyone knew.
Watching curiously as he opened her door for her. She gave a small smile, flicking her hair over her shoulder before he untangled their fingers and slid herself into the car “Thanks , but you know you don’t have to do that”. Shutting the door, Aspeth placed her hands in her lap, really not to sure of what to do. His car looked expensive. Actually everything he was wearing looked kind of expensive. Leaning back into the chair, she felt him get into the car and turned her head to him , seeing his ‘ready to drive’ stance. “I want to see where you live” she nodded confirming the fact and shut her eyes briefly as she felt the car come to life. She had no idea where he lived but it didn’t really matter to her, she was still going to be with Luke. “You know, you don’t look any different” she said quietly , her eyes still shut. “You look exactly the same as you did five years ago , except I think your arms grew bigger, it’s a nice touch” she was teasing him already, smiling at him. It wasn’t supposed to be this easy , at least she didn’t think so. He’d yelled at her, she’d yelled back and now they just sunk back into what they were?
words; seven oh two lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3 notes; friend got here, didn't edit it sorry jess! <3
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Post by lukas nathaniel gates on Jan 14, 2010 3:29:56 GMT -5
___________________________________________ “that’s a dangerous offer luke, i might ask you to take me to rome.” he looked down at her and gave a laugh, shaking his head at the fact that she so suddenly got so greedy. lukas knew that she was just joking with him but it was always interesting to him to see people who always wanted out, who always wanted to get away from home base and go traveling. fuck traveling! lukas was hardly spontaneous and he hardly ever left home base unless it was to tour. california was where his heart was. los angeles was where his heart was. south central was where his heart was and he knew his neighborhood was shitty. he knew that he wasn't the typical cat to come walking out of the south central streets but that was perfectly fine to him. there was just something about cali that screamed security and comfort. he didn't feel the need to go anywhere but los angeles. "if you ask to go to rome i'd buy you the plane ticket but don't think i am going with you. i'll go to ireland though. i would love to go to the guiness factory, get wasted, and then go on a guiness shopping spree for decorations for my house." he gave a smile and then quickly paused, thinking silently to himself for a moment before he spoke aloud. "i wonder if they have a jack daniels' factory. now that would be pretty fucking legit. my place would be a shrine to mr. daniels," he mused, happily smiling away, his innocent-boy dimples definitely pronounced for about the second time that night. needless to say, his habits hadn't changed much. he was a creature of habit. but then aspeth began to talk and he walked silently along beside her, listening to her intently despite the fact that her words confused him at first. "wow, that's really good, babe. i never thought i'd see the day that i would hear those words from you. please tell me you are still down to drink though." yea, it was pretty bad when it came down to hoping that your friends still consumed that one horrible substance that his body craved practically everyday. lukas was so immersed in drinking that anybody who didn't drink was like a horror story contradiction to him. he usually avoided such people, no matter how cool they were. and since brogan had more responsibilities than being a great friend, lukas rarely got him involved with his plans of getting shit faced drunk. after all, his friend had to be able to take care of his son and lukas completely understood that but he was kind of missing that someone that he could just openly drink with. a part of him was hoping to find that in aspeth again.
after she made up her mind about their final destination, lukas put the car in drive and pulled out of the parking lot, burning rubber as he sped off down the street. "i'm warning you now... i don't live in the coziest of neighborhoods. my house is nice though so that is a plus... but it's in south central," he informed her, glancing over at her momentarily to see her reaction. south central was known for it's reputation of gang warfare and violence for a reason. it wasn't rare to hear gunshots at night but lukas grew accustomed to it. after all, where he grew up with his mother wasn't much better; his dad did die in a drive by when a stray bullet shot him. sure, the neighborhood was bad but as long as you stayed out of everyone's business and was cool to everyone on your block, especially the gang members, you were pretty much secure. however, as secure as lukas felt he was he made sure his house was locked up tight. he couldn't afford to get robbed. "yea, well i haven't changed much. i'm still pretty much the same guy just with more money to his name, his own place, and now i'm in a band. wait til you see brogan, the little shit hasn't changed at all either. except now he is a father. his son is so fucking cute and looks so much like bro. acts like him too but now i'm starting to rub off on him... his big uncle lukas," he said, a huge smile on his face as he spoke to her. it was kind of weird to him how much he actually took a liking to jacoby but then again with the kid practically being a mini version of brogan it kind of made sense. "look at you though," he continued, glancing over at her. "you look fucking amazing. a few more tattoos but still the same old aspeth... except maybe for your ass. your ass looks like it got bigger, it's a nice touch," he teased letting out a laugh as he took his hand off the shifter and put his hand on her thigh, giving it a light squeeze.
it was about a twenty minute drive until the reached the outer edge of south central and about another five to navigate through traffic and reach his house. he pulled into his one car driveway and let the car coast a bit before stepping on the breaks and putting the car in park. then he turned the engine off and took the key out of the ignition. "well here we are... chateau gates." he opened his door and exited and then waited until she got out of the car as well before he locked the doors. lukas stood there and waited until she walked around the car before grabbing her hand and leading her up the short stone path from the driveway to his front door. it was one of the few houses that he found in south central that didn't have any kind of steps to the front door and that was one of the main reasons he bought it. having no steps there meant there was less of a safety hazard when he walked into or out of his house when he was drunk. he paused for a moment at the door to unlock it and disarm his security alarm before walking inside, leading her along with him. then he shut the door, turned the alarm back on and let go of her hand to go turn on the lights. sure, it was a small place but it had two bedrooms and one bathroom and all of the appliances were updated with stainless steel models. plus, the house was pretty much covered in hard wood floors. small but friggen nice and his landlord was fucking awesome; he allowed lukas to do anything with that house that he wanted as long as he didn't destroy it. so yeah, he would put up with a shitty neighborhood for a house like this. it was worth it. "sorry i didn't get to clean up or anything," he quickly murmured as he walked into the living room and tried to straighten up jacoby's toys as much as he possibly could before he picked up a few empty cans of beer and threw them into the trashcan in the kitchen. "the bathroom is upstairs and is the first door on the left. food is in the fridge or those cabinets over there depending on what you are looking for. liquor is in the freezer... yea... make yourself at home." now that he thought of it, aspeth was one of the first new visitors he had had since he had moved in. no wonder he was so jumpy. he looked over at her with a sideways smile before pulling off his leather jacket and throwing it onto the arm of the couch. yea, aspeth was right. lukas's body did improve since the last time she had seen him and he was damn proud of it. "so are you staying the night or am i going to have to drive you back home? you are more than welcome to stay. i even have a spare bed so you don't have to sleep with me if you don't want to," he said, his eyes locked on her as he flopped down onto his couch and scooted down a bit into a more comfortable position. no, lukas wasn't going to automatically think that because she was there he was going to get laid. things couldn't possibly be that simple anymore and he wasn't even sure if he wanted to fuck her. after all, he didn't know who the hell she was fucking anymore and he didn't quite like that fact. brogan was right... who the hell knew what she picked up along the way or if she got herself checked. that was one thing that lukas quickly wised up about. he always still had sex with protection but on top of that he got himself checked practically every three months. it was kind of a mandatory activity in his life now, especially with all of the band groupies he shacked up with while he was on tour.
TAGGED: aspeth MUSE: average CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, and a plain white wifebeater COMMENTS: mmmm done! lol CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.
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Post by aspeth emilie blake on Jan 14, 2010 20:55:03 GMT -5
THESE CHILDREN LEARN FROMcigarette burns, fast cars fast women and cheap drinks Aspeth listened to him talk, his voice was making her relax. If she wasn’t careful she was going to sink right back into the same pattern she was in five years ago and the blonde had to make sure that didn’t happen. She wouldn’t use Lukas like that, not anymore, Aspeth didn’t use anybody anymore, well hardly ever. Most of the time if she wanted something; she got it herself. “Ireland, with all the potatoes and little green men, really?” she was just teasing him and as he spoke about the guiness factory his motives for going there became more evident. Pondering his next question for a moment, Aspeth was honestly a little confused. She had no idea if a Jack Daniels factory existed. She assumed so though ” If there was wouldn’t it be in America anyway?” For the second time that night, Lukas’ dimples appeared and part of her wanted to tell him not to smile anymore. Those dimples were a real selling point with the ladies and Aspeth was no different, they had always had an effect on her, almost a strange need to protect him but she was very much aware that Luke could take care of himself, it was usually her that needed taking care of and in the past he’d always been the one to step up and do it. Smiling as he told her that her going clean was a good thing, the praise had a positive effect, making her sit a little higher in her chair. Laughing at his next question she nodded, stretching her arms above her head “Yes Luke, I still drink, like a fucking sailor” Alcohol was a good release for her , it made her worry less. Aspeth could remember Lawson tell her off once for drinking to much, because he was bigger then her and could apparently hold his liquor better, she’d never listened though and it showed.
His warning about the area he lived in wasn’t necessary. Turning her head to look at him she raised an eyebrow “Lukas, I traveled the country with Lawson for almost two years. I’ve stayed in places that should be illegal, South Central is nothing compared to that, it’ll probably be a step up.” While Aspeth hadn’t been back in a while she knew what the place was like and it didn’t scare her at all, actually nothing scared her when she was with Luke. No, bad. Stop having those thoughts. In all honesty, Aspeth didn’t know too many people around the area, she knew a few dealers, not because she bought off them, simply because they came around to the club. She knew the regulars there and they knew her, but she’d never told them where she lived or any other personal details, that would have been just stupid. Lukas continued to talk and she was thankful to him for breaking the silence but her face fell a little at his words. “Brogan has a kid?” she was more then shocked, he’d always seemed like the more careful one of the group. It was cute to hear how he spoke about Brogan’s son, almost as if he were his own “Uncle Lukas huh? Well, I never thought I’d see the day” Aspeth gave a small laugh before another silence fell over the car “I don’t think it’s a very good idea for me to see Brogan, at all, last I remember, he wasn’t my biggest fan” she shrugged a little, figuring it would cause drama. Glaring at him as he teased her about her ass, Aspeth stuck her tongue out “My ass hasn’t gotten bigger or small thank you very much”. As he gave a gentle squeeze to her knee, she felt a little jolt of electricity shoot up and had the urge to rip his hand away, only because the feelings he was brining out were ones she was trying to shove to the back of the closet.
As they pulled up to the house, Aspeth peered out; trying to get a feel for the place but all she could see was black. Opening the car door, Aspeth grabbed her bag and shut the door, hear it lock. Her legs carried her around beside Lukas and she felt him grab her hand as he started to lead her, which she was thankful for seeing as she couldn’t actually see where they were going. Waiting until he unlocked the door, Aspeth slipped in behind him, still being lead. Hearing the security alarm engage again she couldn’t help but wonder what he needed all the alarms for. As soon as the lights went on, Aspeth blinked a little and her jaw wanted to drop. His house quite literally amazing. She could tell it wasn’t the largest place around but just by seeing the living area and the kitchen, Aspeth could tell it would have cost him a lot to rent this place, unless he owned it, which would be even more mind blowing. The blonde didn’t pay to much attention to him as he pointed out where the food and alcohol was. She was still standing in the doorway, looking around. Dropping her bag on the floor next to her, Aspeth glanced around a little more, her eyes wide in surprise “Don’t worry about mess, you should see where I live” she managed to get the words out before turning her attention back to him just in time to see him pull his jacket off and the sight really was a pleasing one. Walking forwards, Aspeth sat down on the arm of his couch, crossing her arms over her chest.
Glancing at him as he asked if she was going to stay or not, Aspeth bit down on her bottom lip, turning her still scantly covered body towards him. “Luke, I don’t even think I should be here now.” she didn’t want to sound rude but she wasn’t sure how to explain it either. “I mean, this place is really, really nice but I don’t think I fit in here. If this is how your life is now, nice houses and all that other crap, I don’t think me being involved in it at all is a good idea.” she paused for a moment, not feeling embarrassed, just awkward. “I’m a fuck load of trouble, you know that and I’m not as bad as I used to be but I don’t want to fuck anything up for you. You’re making something of yourself Lukas and that’s amazing but I work as a stripper, it’s not exactly classy, it is what it is. I take my clothes off to get paid, but believe it or not I don’t mind my job and I won’t quit” that was something she was sure of, Aspeth needed that job, this supporting yourself thing was expensive as hell. “I really wouldn’t fit back into your life and I think that might be a good thing. Things are different now, even if you still look the same, or even better then you used to, Things are different now and I think you know as well as I do ,things won’t go back to how they used to be. “ Pulling herself up off the arm of the couch, she turned her back to him and ran a hand through her hair, stressing. “It was good to see you Luke and I’m proud of you but I think I should go finish my shift.” Aspeth made her way back to his front door and lent down to grab her bag. Somehow this all felt like a big mistake.
words; one two eight three lyrics; im not your boyfriend baby-30h3 notes; silly aspeth.
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Post by lukas nathaniel gates on Jan 14, 2010 23:43:02 GMT -5
___________________________________________ lukas quickly made a couple mental notes to himself as she brought it up. for one, he decided that he had to look up if there was indeed a jack daniels factory or even just jack daniel branded items that were sold online. now that he had the idea of making his place a shrine to the best booze of all time he was actually quite taken with it. plus, he could just imagine brogan's face if he walked in his place and saw it. it was too funny not to consider. another thing he mentally put away was the fact that she still drank. lukas was a little too happy about that but he really didn't expect anything different out of her. he knew how much she treasured her alcohol back in the day and he doubted that would really change much but he was happy to get her confirmation to his thoughts. then she brought up lawson and he completely ignored anything that came right after his name. lawson was a sore subject for lukas when it really had no reason to be. he should have hated his friend for doing him dirty and then hitting aspeth the way he did and yet, in a way, lukas missed the hell out of the guy. sure, he made life a little more difficult but he dealt with it because lawson was his brother, his best friend. it was worth having the guy around in the long run. but his thoughts of lawson were put on hold as she mentioned brogan with a bit of a shock. he gave a returning laugh and nodded his head as he placed a hand on her leg while she sat next to him on the arm of the couch. "yea, a five year old son named jacoby... with jess. they were together there for a bit, as a couple or whatever and then one day when the kid was about two jess packed her bags and moved to montreal. they kind of shipped jacoby back and forth to each other but like two years ago she finally dropped jacoby off and told brogan that she was letting him keep their son. she got married to callum and was pregnant with their baby. i guess it was kind of her way of making him happy so he didn't have to deal with her anymore," he informed her, ending in a soft mutter. lukas had never had a problem with jess even when lawson hated her but she really confused him. he could understand why she hadn't picked brogan and stayed with him because it was obvious that she loved callum more than she loved brogan but he was still confused as to where her mind was when she left jacoby on brogan's doorstep. it made no sense to him but brogan thankfully got through it with jacoby being around. it was like brogan turned all of his hurt and depression to love for this child that was basically taken away from him. lukas really looked up to his friend when it came to that.
but then he felt aspeth move a bit on the couch and his golden eyes traveled up to meet hers. and then confusion swept over his face as she said that she shouldn't be there. he opened his mouth to correct her but before he even could form a word she went off on this long rant about how she didn't fit into his life anymore. it was bullshit. she came back into his life after five years and she automatically started making assumptions? no, he wasn't having any of that and before he could respond to her ridiculous thoughts she was up and walking to his door. lukas quickly followed after her and he grabbed her arm, stopping her before she got any further. "i thought i told you earlier to stop walking away from me," he muttered in his deep voice before cracking a sideways smile, making just one dimple appear. "aspeth, i told you before that i am still the same guy. i still do the same shit... i just have nicer stuff and more money to spend on my habits. i'm still the guy that has never dated anyone. i'm still the guy that everyone knows as a manwhore... i'm just a little softer around the edges. don't make unnecessary assumptions. i came up to you at the club, right? i drove you here, right? i know that things aren't the same and i know that they won't go back to where we were when we were in high school but, aspeth, this is me saying i want you in my life exactly the way you are... that i missed you." he paused for a moment and looked down at his shoes before looking back up at her again. "if you really want to go back to work i'll take you back. and if you don't ever want to see me again then you won't. but before you go i just wanted you to know that i didn't bring you back here to get laid or anything... or whatever you have in your mind." since when the hell did lukas become such a softy and since when did he run after girls two times in the same night? something was definitely wrong and it was something he needed to figure out for himself and hopefully quickly, preferably when he was alone. looking for a simple distraction he put his hands into his jeans pockets and toyed around with the keys that were inside, waiting for her to make her decision.
TAGGED: aspeth MUSE: average CLOTHING: black tim boots, light blue cargo jeans, and a plain white wifebeater COMMENTS: he just wanted to kiss her but decided against it lol CREDIT: lyrics found on caution.
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